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Just Five More Minutes

While at the park one day, a woman sat down next to a man on a bench near a playground.“That’s my son over there,” she said, pointing to a little boy in a red sweater who was gliding down the slide. “He’s a fine looking boy” the man said. “That’s my daughter on the bike in the white dress.” Then, looking at his watch, he called to his daughter. “What do you say we go, Melissa?” Melissa pleaded, “Just five more minutes, Dad. Please? Just five more minutes.” The man nodded and Melissa continued to ride her bike to her heart’s content.  Minutes passed and the father stood and called again to his daughter. “Time to go now?” Again Melissa pleaded, “Five more minutes, Dad. Just five more minutes.” The man smiled and said, “OK.” “My, you certainly are a patient father,” the woman responded. The man smiled and then said,  “Her older brother Tommy was killed by a drunk driver last year while he was riding his bike near here. I never spent much time with Tommy and now I’d give anything for just five more minutes with him. I’ve vowed not to make the same mistake with Melissa. She thinks she has five more minutes to ride her bike. The truth is, I get five more minutes to watch her play.”

[xoxo] Made In Love

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There were 12 readers since yesterday's post. 
I'm glad there are 12 precious people reading. 
I'm really very honored. seriously. 
Even if it's only one person i'll still be glad.
(but of course i don't mind more people)
Don't roll your eyes going 'oh don't give me that crap'
cos i really mean it! 


But i feel bad for the 12 readers yesterday. 
Cos i was venting my unhappiness. 
I felt this is an inappropriate place to dry my dirty laundry. 
Also, i know that my tone was too harsh. 
And it might also be a bad impression. 
I notice it's very hard for me to be back blogging once i exit my comfort zone for the post.
In that case, yesterday's post was something really close to my heart but still negative and controversial. 
And now, it still is something really close to my heart 
I'll admit i'm afraid of being subjected to judgement. 
But ailin told me that she also hates it. 
She also said for her blog, she don't mind people reading, but don't judge. 
Which i agree. it sounds so right. 
It's never good to have a close mind and judge what others say.


Oh yeah, i have to add, i know my influence is really small now.  
as compared to those youtube celebrities and blog celebrities having thousands of people tuning in daily. 
but i trust that i will be more influential. 
Not by my power. 
Cos i know my God will plant good thoughts in my mind, give me the right things to say, 
and opportunities to excel in what i do. 
amenamenamenamen. 


okay, i'm done baring my heart on global net. 


Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are.  -Malcolm S. Forbes

[xoxo] Made In Love

My runaway love by Evil Kitteh on Deviantart

I almost ran away from home. 
Epic right. 
But i'm serious. 
Had a major argument with my dad. 
And i still feel it's his fault. 
Cos anything that goes wrong in the family, the dad has the most responsibilities. 
It's not my fault it's my fault. 
It's yours. You didn't bring me up well. 
You didn't protect me. You didn't educate me enough. 
You didn't convince me enough why i should listen to you. 
It's all your fault because you are the leader of the family. 
I dislike him for not doing his job well. 
I cannot forgive his imperfections. 


Timeline of the event goes: 
I called my mum asking if i could stay over at my gf's place. she said no. 
Then i asked to talk to my dad, imagining he would be more understanding. 
But no, he's never consistent. So he happened not to agree on that. 
Which i found unreasonable. 
Hello, i'm not going to elope with a boyfriend to Africa right. 
It's my bestfriend whom you also know. 
I happen not to be a lesbian so any sexual activities are unlikely as well.
So i argued. my point was it's my life so you should give me good reasons for interfering with my interests. 
But instead of coming with a good reason, he got mad and threatened to sent me to juvenile prison. 
Also mentioned our relationship has been improving but then i always have to keep ruining it. 
Who me? Oh okay, so it's all my fault now. 
After which, he got really really mad then kept asking if i wanted to go home or not. 
As a threat of course. 
In that tone in which if you say yes, he'll explode and say 'fine! don't ever step into the house again!'
Of course i didn't answer and kept beating about the bush, angrily. Then he cut my call. 
Then my mum called me back, she kept asking me to go home. 
Until i heard my dad yelling in the background saying i was useless. 
Then i snapped and said i won't be coming home. Like this: 
"Forget it! I'm not going home alr!" -CUT-
Epic right 
|: 


Then my mum called a gazillion times, okay no, maybe just about 20-30 times. 
and 5 smses. 


I was really confused. It felt so difficult to go home, so easy to just go hachi's place and then from there work my way. 
But i was afraid my actions would cause permanent damages that i might regret. 
I talked to my god sis.
She's always been a blessing to me. 
So she pointed out things i could take note of while making my decisions. 
I love the way she clears some confusion for me. 
She never forces her thinking one me, but suggests them subtilely.
She respects my decision, whichever it can be. 
Which really helps me. Cos i never like pressure. 
I never like it when someone forces down their ideology on me. 
I prefer to go my own way, without having to listen to anyone. 
I guess i'm afraid to do things just to please without really listening to my heart. 
Anyway, she reminded me of how my mum might need me, with the possibility of my dad giving her a hard time, and me not returning home will not help. 
It was also a chance for me to show how much i care for the family, instead of just talk. 


I also felt bad that i made hachi wait for me for a horribly long time. and ended up not going to her place. 
She looked disappointed. 
But i trust it is normal to be disappointed and she will continue supporting me as she always did. 


My mum picked me up from downstairs. 
I was expecting something else, but my mum starting to preach to me about how my dad was just being himself, and i cannot possibly just get angry with him for this small matter, and i should tolerate a little more since i'm not far from freedom. and others. 
i didn't half absorb what she said. 
It really wasn't the right time. 
I was still fuming at my dad. At least let me fume finish? 
She said we owe it to him, it is because of his contributions that's how we manage to cope. 
And i thought we probably also owe it to him that's why we are stuck in mediocrity. 
Without him, things won't be like this, she says. 
I agree, things could even have been better. 
She also said i cannot possibly hate him all my life right? he's still my dad. and afterall he still contributed to my growth and it is because of him that's why i exist. 
I thought, i can hate him all my life. i don't need to care a damn about how much he contributed. I feel what i want to. what can u do if i don't appreciate your efforts. toooooo bad. i will repent when i feeeeel like it. 
Oh and she says what about financially, how are you going to support yourself? 
And she joked, are you going to get a boyfriend then leech off him, then he leaves after 2-3 months?
I thought, yeah i am going to do that. In fact, i'm going to get a sugar daddy. if one leaves, i'll find another, and i shall live my life like this. 
okay joking. i'm not that cheap. 
But i will work for money. Then attend school. i will work everyday. which gives me at least 1k a month. then when i realize it's not enough to feed my vanity self, i will decide to kidnap Robert Pattinson. 


Yeah i just thought, i didn't say anything in fact. 
God told me to keep my mouth shut. i did. 
and i feel real thankful for it. 
i know what i would say and it will totally not help the situation. 


Now i'm home. Feeling really sleepy. Also wondering why am i blogging about this so lightheartedly. 
Maybe cos i did the right thing? Maybe. I don't know. Keep feeling i should have just not returned.

"The explanation is always longer when there isn't any." Robert Brault. 

[xoxo] Made In Love 

Be my friend, and i promise i will: 
protect you more, 
support you more, 
listen to you more, 
judge you less,



**in comparison with people i'm not friends with. 


I shall share about my sleeping hours. 
Slept at 5 plus in the evening yesterday. And i woke up at 330 am just now. 
Yay. But i feel the timing is so sick. 
Makes me feel sick and i need more sleep.
Okay off to sleep now. I have an hour before i need to get up again.


A loyal friend laughs at your jokes when they're not so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they're not so bad.  ~Arnold H. Glasgow
[xoxo] Made In Love

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sometimes ppl dun understand what you are saying. 

so they use a rough impression from their memory bank which causes misunderstandings.

To prevent this, it's good to have a rich 'memory-evolved into-observation bank'.

Got this a few days back. So i need to say it. 

But now i dun rly feel like thinking. 

Today i have been semi conscious. 

Slept in the bus so when i alighted, i was still adjusting in my contacts. 

Then rushed to the grandstand, where they were having netball. 

I felt so blur, plus i was sleepy as well. so didnt really pay much attention to the lesson. 

Pity cos it was kinda the highlight of the week. 

Okay try not to laugh at that. |: 

I do have a life! (maybe)

Hmmmmmm. Oh i pierced my ears! for the third time actually. 

But i was too wimpy to take care of it. 

I dislike the putting in of the ear stud. so scary. 

If you poke wrong direction then will hurt. 

At least for me, the previous times. 

Who said it's uninteresting to talk about what u ate and what u do? 

Okay, a lot of people. 

But i dun mind reading. 

Especially when i wanna find out more about a person. 

But that doesn't mean i wont get bored by blogs. 

I still will. 

If you decide to bore me with your uninteresting personality, then, maybe not. 

Okay now, for the first time, i shall type chinese words.

张韶函－ 潘朵拉

害怕寂陌去爱没意依

因为无聊才爱更无趣。 

i think chinese words are so beautiful. 

So meaningful and interesting. 

But bengs and style-less people over use it. so it kinda cramps the style. |: 

Nevermind! there's me! i shall bring cool back into chineseee. 

And that was meant to be joke. 

My alarm clock and I had a fight. It wanted me to get up, I refused. Things escalated. Now I'm awake and my alarm clock is broken. Not sure who won the fight.

[xoxo] Made In Love